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#476
Jul 17, 2016, 01:23 AM
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Things are going ok, not great, but not bad either. Things certainly could be much worse. I'm still trying to get settled into my new apartment and there are boxes and bags of stuff EVERYWHERE and it's driving me nuts. I'd stay up and try to get some stuff done while I have energy but I know my brother will be home eventually and all he'll want to do is go straight to bed (apparently he had a bad day at work, according to my mom). Met with my pdoc yesterday who reminded me that I need to stop being so hard on myself. We're keeping my cocktail the same for now and will keep evaluating as needed. The only change is that he now wants me to see my therapist every week instead of every 3-4 weeks. I'm trying to remain positive, but sometimes it's just not that easy.
My aunt who is BP1 apparently had a really bad week and my mom was afraid she'd end up back in the hospital. Thankfully she seems to have calmed down enough that it didn't end up that way. I used think of everything my aunt has gone through over the years and it would make me sad. Now I'm almost angry at the fact that could be me someday. Yes, I'm still angry and bitter about my diagnosis and I'm trying to get past it, but again...it's not easy.
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Dx: BP2 and MDD Current meds: 100mg Wellbutrin; 200mg Lamictal; 400mg Seroquel at night; Xanax 1mg/PRN; 100mg/PRN Trazodone at night for insomnia Diagnosed in May 2016 |
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#477
Jul 17, 2016, 06:23 AM
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Well my Grandpa died this morning. My Mom woke me up after she got here to tell me (my Grandma couldn't). We're just waiting for home hospice to get here to determine time of death and take him away for the last time...
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Wir sind was wir sind English We are what we are MDD w/psychotic features, BPD |
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#478
Jul 17, 2016, 06:33 AM
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My grandpa died almost 2 weeks ago, so I can relate. It's a very tough thing to deal with. My best advice is be there for your grandma, ok? My grandma was so upset when her husband passed, constantly having crying spells. We don't know what would've happened to her if we weren't there to support her. She kept saying things like, "I want God to take me with him." So, it's very important to be with her. We had my grandma stay with us for almost 2 weeks. It helped her immensely. 
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#479
Jul 17, 2016, 06:52 AM
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It's still morning so I haven't started my day yet, but I still feel good. Need to figure out what to dig into first. I haven't felt this good in months, so it's definitely an improvement. |
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#480
Jul 17, 2016, 07:48 AM
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today is an exciting day.
i am having 24 (24) cans of dr pepper delivered to me yes, my dear friends, that is my highlight of july can you tell my life is seriously lacking? lol didn't sleep at all yesterday, but i'm not tired in the slightest |
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#481
Jul 17, 2016, 07:59 AM
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A few week's ago, I found Surge at the gas station. I hadn't seen a can of Surge in at least 15 years. I got waaaay too excited. Sent from my LGLS990 using Tapatalk |
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#482
Jul 17, 2016, 08:02 AM
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i've never heard of surge.. what is it? i'm going to get really irritable if my dr pepper does not show up soon. it's been at least 12 hours for god's sake |
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#483
Jul 17, 2016, 08:08 AM
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Sent from my LGLS990 using Tapatalk |
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#484
Jul 17, 2016, 08:18 AM
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gimme some of that stuff please please please? (we'll sing the kangaroo song even!) uggg currently so thirsty despite having all those cups of juice |
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#485
Jul 17, 2016, 09:26 AM
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I think that I have read that high sugary(fructose too) drinks make you more thirsty...
water is best.... bizi
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#486
Jul 17, 2016, 11:07 AM
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Dx: BP2 and MDD Current meds: 100mg Wellbutrin; 200mg Lamictal; 400mg Seroquel at night; Xanax 1mg/PRN; 100mg/PRN Trazodone at night for insomnia Diagnosed in May 2016 |
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#487
Jul 17, 2016, 11:12 AM
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dr pepper arived
success! don't often get deliveries (never) on sundays, but here it is |
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#488
Jul 17, 2016, 12:00 PM
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Quiet day so far, rainy day here. Might stay in pj's all day
Sent from my SAMSUNG-SM-G930A using Tapatalk
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#489
Jul 17, 2016, 06:21 PM
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am full from dinner.
I snuck and drank a big white russian before hubby got home My heart rate is rapid! ...sigh bizi
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#490
Jul 17, 2016, 06:35 PM
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Lots'a stress
My grandma has officially lost it. She is f***ing nuts. She keeps insulting my aunt (her daughter) for no good reason. She has these bizarre delusions that my aunt is going to drag her to hell, "just like she did with grandpa", which is why she now hates my aunt. Then about 1 hour ago she threw a porcelain plate and a glass beer bottle at my aunt while shrieking, "YOU ARE NOT DRAGGING ME TO HELL. I'M RUNNING AWAY." Now we have to find a place to put her, but only after we get her mentally evaluated. We don't live near her, so we're having my dad's cousin pick her up take care of her. Hopefully she doesn't think he's "evil" too. It's bad |
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#491
Jul 17, 2016, 07:28 PM
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I'm sorry to hear about your grandmas meltdown blue, it sounds like losing her husband was very traumatic.
Bizi...I love white Russians, haven't had one in years, black Russians too! There's a very good ice-cream drink( don't recall the name) It's a black Russian in vanilla ice cream.
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#492
Jul 17, 2016, 08:50 PM
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Took a nap, feel better.....
bizi
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lamictal 2x a day haldol 2x a day cogentin 2x a day klonipin , 1mg at night, fish oil coq10 multi vit,, vit c, at noon, tumeric, caffeine Remeron at night, zyprexa, requip2-4mg |
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#493
Jul 17, 2016, 08:54 PM
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#494
Jul 17, 2016, 08:55 PM
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#495
Jul 17, 2016, 09:14 PM
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I really don't feel like taking my meds.
Sometimes I just feel rebellious and quit taking them for a few days. I just am tired of it
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#496
Jul 17, 2016, 09:37 PM
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I sometimes get tired of BP
Tired of pills Tired of being tired Tired of feeling like I'm watching a movie Maybe no more pills for a few days might help
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#497
Jul 17, 2016, 10:49 PM
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taper them if you must. bizi
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lamictal 2x a day haldol 2x a day cogentin 2x a day klonipin , 1mg at night, fish oil coq10 multi vit,, vit c, at noon, tumeric, caffeine Remeron at night, zyprexa, requip2-4mg |
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#499
Jul 18, 2016, 12:22 AM
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Can't stop crying, the reality is setting in that my Grandpa really is gone forever, and I'll never get to talk to.him again. I'll really miss our 3am chats especially if I was manic/hypomanic and he was a nocturnal creature like myself. I'll just miss everything about him. I know he's in my heart and watching over us. But I just wish I had one more.chance to tell him in person that I love him.
As of right now trying to distract myself from crying a bit by posting on here and maybe getting something to eat.
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Wir sind was wir sind English We are what we are MDD w/psychotic features, BPD |
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#500
Jul 18, 2016, 01:46 AM
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I am sorry this is so hard right now..... take good care of yourself. Be well for your grandpa. He wants the best for you and his memory will always be there for you. (((((HUGS)))) bizi
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lamictal 2x a day haldol 2x a day cogentin 2x a day klonipin , 1mg at night, fish oil coq10 multi vit,, vit c, at noon, tumeric, caffeine Remeron at night, zyprexa, requip2-4mg |
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