TishaBuv... it's not insane to want to be with the person you love.. .so, don't beat yourself up. -- my emotions are so tipsy-turvy right now, I'd probably do the same thing. But sometimes the person we love may be toxic for our stability. So I try REALLY hard to keep my emotions in check.

One thing I'm committed to doing is, I'm TRYING to meet people with same interests. I re-engaged with a support group I used to attend (wonderful & caring people); I'm starting to play my guitar again.

I went to a Karaoke bar this weekend and laughed my *** off. At the bar, I FORCED myself to talk to people who sang songs i liked... guys, girls, didn't matter.

-- I know, easier said than done; especially with all our other baggage... but, it's a start!

Good luck girl !!