I believe it IS my emotions. that I had lost them. I used to be very energetic and creative. I could come up with a new story, drawing idea or character everyday. Music would speak to me, it would flurry my emotions and it would get me VERY creative, excited, and I could imagine different worlds, listening to different music. I was always sooo inspired and passionate. I cared about everyone, even strangers. I was also always so motivated and cared a LOT about my dreams. But then I got into a relationship with this girl and fell deeply in love to quickly. Things went downhill pretty quick (Note: It was long distance) and I honestly cried a lot. I couldn't handle the pain I was going through and one night it all just clicked and the majority of my emotions are gone. I can still feel, but not as strong, it is very faint. I tried listening to music again, but i just sat there, I couldn't feel my emotions reacting to it anymore. I don't want to, or feel to draw anymore. The story i was creating is pretty much dead now. I don't feel inspired or creative anymore. I just feel kinda blank and dull, grey. No more colors. Like the fire in my heart is just gone. I have moved on from her and the unfortunate event with this girl I was attached to. I have also tried to backtrack and regain my emotions, but I still feel dull, and I guess cold. Maybe I had died inside? That's my one of my biggest fears, I hope that may not be the case. Either way, how would I go about regaining my old self? The loving energetic, creative, passionate and compassionate me. The fire I had in my heart. My strong emotions. How can I get that all back?