I'm trying to read between the lines, I hope you've been checked up for the seizure. That's something you have to do, you just can't dump yourself.

Computers, they don't have a soul so I'm not too worried about it but you may have had something important on it, you can ask me if you need some extra help with that. It's more than likely, it's almost a certainty that any computer crash won't cost more than a brand new computer, you just don't need to give up on this.

Lastly, please remember that from moment to moment on every little decisions you have to make, you are stronger that you may think you're, if you're stopping, feel like giving up a little, that's just a transitional state till you get yourself moving again. Happiness and love, I don't think about stuff like that often. Please try to figure yourself out to be at 100% first, that's what anyone needs to givth, pulling strength out of something that's letting you still standing there, this is how we humans are smarter than computers, each and everyone of us have something within to boot ourselves back up.