Hello elevatedsoul: Well... the Skeezyks doesn't know for sure what your question is. But from the overall tone of your Thread, it sounds to me as though it involves suicide? The Skeezyks is in no position, here on PC, to be offering up any official rulings with regard to anything. But, from my personal perspective, I would say that, assuming suicide is the topic de jour here, you can certainly ask your question. (Please forgive me if I am off-base here.)

However, keep in mind that we are here on PsychCentral to help support one another, not to facilitate anyone's do-it-yourself exit attempts. If you are feeling suicidal please reach out, in real life, for the help you need. (I say this as a person who has made several pervious attempts of my own...)