I'm sorry your going to be seperated. You initially said you felt a bit of relief when she wanted a seperation. I think that's the sign that your struggle has been going in for too long. It's stressful when a conflict drags on and on without any en in sight. And it's a relief when you can move forward...even if it's not forward into the perfect future you hoped for. I guess it's the relief that the anger, stress, pain, frustration may actually end one day. Hang in there, try to focus on the tasks u need to accomplish as you move forward so you don't drown in your emotions. Thinking of u.