Hello Deeplyhurt, thanks for responding. I think its important for me to remember that everything is temporary and subject to change. I have given consideration to the same idea, that being what will I live for when my kids no longer need me as much as they do right now. I believe I will find another reason to stay on the planet in that event. Change is truly the only consistency in this life. Many of us who suffer from mental illness don't accept that very easily, we seek stability and an end to the chaos and strife. Life is just simply not that way and it never will be. It's messy and organic, very much like surfing. We ride one wave as far as it will go then jump on another one. My two sense.