I don't really know how to discribe what I'm feeling or why for that matter. I want to say I feel like I'm going insane, but that's not accurate. That would imply that I'm having trouble distinguishing between reality & what's not real. I'm not seeing things that aren't there. It's like there's a voice inside me saying give up & let go. Yet once again not really accurate because I'm not hearing voices. If anything it's more of an overwhelming feeling of dread & just wanting to give up. I have had a nervous breakdown in the past & it feels like I'm walking a fine line of going through that again. Frankly that terrifies me. I don't want to go through that again. Yet if I feel if I step to the right or left that will happen. I am so tired of fighting against this.