I'm at the point where I don't know what to do. My depression is horrible & overwhelming. Everything I do to try and take a step forward only makes it worse. "Try and go and talk to someone." I have tried and they don't seem to listen. Whenever I try sifting through a large list of therapists my insurance would cover only makes my depression & anxiety worse & leaves me feeling hopeless. I am just so tired of trying to fight. Maybe if I were making some kind of progress I wouldn't feel like this. Maybe I'm the problem. There comes a point in time when you have to look and say what's the common denominator? I say they don't listen & they don't care. Everyone? Maybe I'm the problem. The best way to deal with a problem is to remove it. After all I deserve this. I brought this on myself.

I have a great deal of respect for those of you that can manage your depression. I know I need serious help but I'm beyond helping.