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Originally Posted by bluebicycle
oh no!
I can't really answer your question, but do you know why you don't want to take meds or do ECT? I know you had some anxiety about ECT in the past. But I'm wondering if you're on the verge of a mood swing because that's how I feel when I'm depressed... or how some people feel when hypo.
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Primarily, it's because I'm doing so well. I have looked carefully at whether I'm hypomanic - without a clear conclusion yet.
The anxiety about the ECT, I discovered, was more about being a difficult patient. (That whole "overly empathetic" problem.) For the previous IV I was a frustrating five sticks for two different nurses. For this last one the nurse got me on the first try. I realised then that I was only anxious about making things hard on the staff taking care of me, and I can/should trust them to be capable and prepared.
I just don't feel like I need anything. I wonder if I could've managed the whole time without taking anything. I guess I'm questioning the diagnosis with this.