So I find myself absolutely and entirely uninterested in getting into any relationship involving a partner of either the same or opposite sex. I had some type of longing for sexual intimacy during my early teenage years but they subsided by the time I was 16 to 17 years old. Due to my past with alcoholic parents, high anxiety in my youth, crippling and suicidal depression without too much outside help, I have grown to be extremely emotionally self-sufficient and the thought of a relationship, both the act of acquiring one and maintaining it, just seems like a lot of trouble for little gain.

Although I'm by no means asexual. I'll be very clear on that. I entertain the idea of sexual partners yet lack the means to acquiring them. I also feel no compelling need to such an end. It is an "it'd be nice if", not an "I must have" situation.

I don't even really know why I felt like I wanted to post this here. Maybe just to vomit out feelings never shared? I guess I'd like to know if anyone ever felt similar, or had some deeper insight to donate. Either way, it's here now. Say something, or don't, it most likely will change little.