I've just learned about dissociating PTSD. I'm not sure that I have it. Here's what I do:

1. If I am interested in something I am truly 100% present. If I am not interested, like in science class in school, Elvis has left the building.

2. When I am driving, I am having conversations and thoughts so deep that I am automatically driving the car and forget where I am going.

3. When I have sex with my h, I leave my body. I am living a fantasy somewhere else and am not even me.

4. I have done acting. I become someone else. It isn't me and I really like it and am very good at it.

5. I have imaginary friends who are with me. I never told anyone this before.

6. I cannot focus on super hero movies or foot ball games. My mind just shuts down, goes elsewhere, no matter how I try to focus.

7. I feel like an actor in my own life. Is there even a me? Am I just playing a role? I always dress the part for who I want people to think I am.