Hi sweetie, I'm so sorry you are feeling so bad. This illness is just is so difficult. You're right, things DO suck sometimes and pdocs/therapists often don't seem to relate.

I just wanted to let you know that we are here to support you. PM me anytime if you need a listening ear.

I also think you should consider IP if you think it will help you. You've mentioned it and I know you are struggling. It happens.

IP is not a "vacation" but it can help us push the reset button, so to speak. My pdoc has told me that if I am not functioning and able to care for myself daily, ongoing...then IP is appropriate. It can be preventative in the sense that it helps you get back to a bit of a baseline before things get worse.

It sounds like your meds are not working, as you clearly stated. Having a completely different pdoc (IP) make some changes and see how you adjust IP can really be a game-changer.

I'm not pushing IP on you. I just wanted you to know we care about you, you have our support - and that sometimes we need IP. The cost should not be something to concern yourself right now.

Thinking of you.