Hi Wandering Soul. I understand how you feel. I also feel very lonely & wish I had friends & family to do things with. I'm one of those people who claims to have one friend, but the truth is I rarely see this friend except maybe every few years, which really isn't very soul sustaining. It seems that all others gave up on me long ago. It's my own fault. I took them for granted back then & didn't realize how important they would be to me one day. I know the feeling of going out & becoming more depressed after seeing people together. And might as well forget about making new friends, I used to try but nothing ever came of those efforts, so gradually the isolation just grew. Now I'm so inhibited the effort feels monumental. So I just wanted you to know I do commiserate.