***I'm new here and want to make sure that if this is a possible trigger topic for anyone that you know now before reading any further.***

I've never been diagnosed with depression, but based on some of my symptoms over the years I suspect I have it, albeit a mild form. For many years I've had little interest in life/activities, I feel empty inside, feel like my mood is generally low, pessimistic, always anxious/nervous.

I've recently been going through a breakup of my relationship of 5 years. It's been 3 weeks. I was the dumpee, as usual. I'm 36 and I feel like he was my first love (I thought I'd been in love before, but then I met him). I'm taking this really hard and it seems to have exasperated my feelings. Just today I had a break down and cried and cried and a thought crept into my head. The thought was that I didn't care if I lived anymore. I have a Rx for Klonopin and briefly wondered if it was possible to overdose on it. But then I realized what I was thinking and it scared me. I don't feel like I would actually do anything to hurt myself, but these types of thoughts are not normal for me. Are these considered suicidal thoughts? I'm so scared that my mind is going to this place.