Hi all. Well, my current relationship looks like it hit rock bottom. All the emotional pains I deal with got to me. It's just that my boyfriend and I aren't the right people for each other, and sticking the wrong people together results in heartbreak for at least one of them.

A lot of the things he does inadvertently hurt me. He's happy with me, but he doesn't meet my needs. It's really unfair for both him and myself.

I just don't know how he could've been so happy so far!

I have a feeling that he found someone online, and that's why he's been so happy. Eh, I wouldn't be too surprised since he doesn't like to express his vulnerable feelings with me. I don't have proof though, so I can't go out and say it. I could be completely wrong, after all. But a lot of the warning signs are there. Lack of sex, a lot of time spent online, hiding in another room, making sure I don't hear his phone calls, texting someone a lot while keeping his phone turned away from me, hiding everything he does online, taking his phone to the bathroom and keeping it on him, spending a huge amount of time in the bathroom (without actually using the toilet), extra "protection" hidden away, etc. And I never snoop through anyone's stuff! Oh yeah, I found the protection because it was loosely hidden on a seat, which I saw when I walked into a room. He must've been only pretending that we "ran out."

Anyway, rather than be constantly paranoid, on top of not being satisfied in our relationship, I decided to just break up and move on. Seems like the right choice, right?

I gave him a silent treatment today in my fit of unrested feelings. He usually would be very upset about this and would want to talk it out immediately (which is what usually happens when I'm upset, than we make up and move on), but I had the very strong feeling that he thought I learned something new that caused it; basically I have a feeling that he thought I somehow found out about cheating, and he's been weirdly okay with it. Like he doesn't have to pretend he cares anymore, or that he can just let it go. It could also be something else. He cried a bit without saying anything, but didn't want to talk to me and seemed okay the rest of the time. He's very peaceful, and we've been going through the day like strangers. He's just talking to whoever he talks to. I haven't been mean or mad at him either, but in something like a trance.

So, he and I are both attending school. He's financially in a tougher spot than me right now. What I want to do is keep acting like the relationship is "real," unless he wants to end it, until school is over. Than I can ask him to move out then, so that he wasn't affected financially or that he schooling would be affected. Would anyone have any good advice on this? Of course, this would be very hard living like this with someone you once loved dearly. But, I do care about him and want him to finish up his school semester.

Oh yeah, also, how would I break up without him guilting me back into the relationship? When I mentioned break up in the past, he started angrily complaining about what I'm putting him through. It was almost scary. He also made me feel like everything was perfect and that I ruined everything.