Turtle I don't understand why I'm hurting myself either. It's just a release I guess. The fact that I've done so much damage to my body & I don't stop is what makes me so pathetic. If it were one little "injury" here or there it would be different, but it's not. It's all over both my arms and since I don't have any space left rather than quitting or at least taking a break I move on to my chest & legs. How before I run out of space there? What will I do then? The fact that I don't know these answers is what makes me pathetic. I'm slowly losing more control over my body.