I'm glad you had a good session! I understand that it would be hard to tell T when you feel she is being critical, shaming and judgmental in the moment. Would you be able to tell her when she is helpful?

"Then t blew me away because she said Mona you have had so much trauma in your life, everything feels unsafe. I see you freezing up in session and I feel so powerless because I know I can't reach you and it frustrates me. She said she was sorry because she has been letting her frustration interfere.
T said she really cares and cares too much because she tries so hard to get me out of my shutdown and nothing works. I said I could really see that she cares and then t touched her heart and cried.
T was very soft today and gentle, this is the t I love and have missed."