Every kind of behavior by people around me causes me to suspect them of faking, or plotting with others hoping I don't catch on. I try to ignore these things but sometimes I can feel their awkwardness, or sense their deception and it makes me sick. I don't trust anybody, but some people have to be in my life at this point. I too get the anxious, sickening feeling especially when I know I am right about them.
The worst for me is when i pick up on little things that don't add up when dealing with people who are supposed to be arbitrary to my friends/family and situation, and should have no knowledge of my other circles. I latch onto the smallest detail and mull it over, trying to build the rest of the puzzle.
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