Keep writing about your feelings on the forum and in a journal on your computer. This is the right place! It feels weird and wrong to ask for help but this is the place. This is why the forum was created.

We are usually programmed during childhood to be these "good" kids and accommodate the needs of various people in the family so if you have a therapist, discuss this very thing with them. I would not bother "going slow" with doing things you like to do or taking care of your needs before others. Boundaries are HEALTHY AND GOOD.

So, how does accommodating the needs of others present in your life? Do you have examples of this? Many of us have a very hard time saying NO. And we find out very quickly who the biggest intruders are when we start developing boundaries for ourselves because they would prefer that we continue to have none. :-)

Big hugs to you. You're gonna be okay! Dig into these realizations you're having. And feel your feelings.

-Lele