Hi, I'm uncertain of three things. 1) Am I mentally and emotionally able to work?2) Do I want to work? 3) Whether I want to or not, is it necessary for my mental health, because I am unable to handle an existence supported on my own entertainment activities, which give me little pleasure anyways?

First, I want to say that my parents support me fully at 24 right now. I don't do a lot. I spent time in a psych ward in late September, 2 weeks, and now I'm on meds, Risperidone and Lithium. I may be schizoaffective, nobody is certain about diagnoses. I was working at a piano repair store before, training to become a piano technician. They may allow me to come back to be trained as a tuner in January, but I can't count on it.

My self esteem would probably be better if I could manage a working schedule. But I am told I am in convalescence. It seems frightening to look for a job even though it is my ticket to independence. I hope writing here can help me to process about it, but if anyone has any thoughts or wants to share a similar situation, they can. Also, I am a classical piano player and I have had lots of interests and hobbies, like learning spanish. I wish I could go to college and study what I love, but I'm not one of those lucky ones, it feels like.