I had to ask a preacher for electric bill help and he was telling me that I needed to go to a church that was closer to where I lived. I told him that transportation wasn't a problem and I could drive to that area and he was condescending regarding why I'd want to drive that far when there are closer churches.

It makes me feel like I'm being pushed out of that church because of where I live which is not my fault because my mom died and I had to become the caregiver for my disabled brother and sister.

So I'm basically forced to live in this area forever.

I feel like cutting or being self-destructive.