I'm sorry you are in a mix d episode and sorry you have paranoia too. I'm glad you are mostly euphoric and should be able to explore the world a bit with the help of your parents. It's good that you finally got to see your doctor and get a better idea of what is going on.

I called today to have my doctor allow me to take my Wellbutrin since I felt myself falling into the abyss. Instead of feeling powerful, I feel powerless.....I feel depressed but doctor said I'm clearly manic and cannot have AD's right now. They gave me haldol and it knocked me down again several notches. I don't get it. It's like I'm being forced down into the pit and told to be a quiet good girl.

I hope your upswing sticks around a bit longer, but not so much as to keep you in the hospital longer than necessary.