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Originally Posted by ElsaMars
I'm sorry you are in a mix d episode and sorry you have paranoia too. I'm glad you are mostly euphoric and should be able to explore the world a bit with the help of your parents. It's good that you finally got to see your doctor and get a better idea of what is going on.
I called today to have my doctor allow me to take my Wellbutrin since I felt myself falling into the abyss. Instead of feeling powerful, I feel powerless.....I feel depressed but doctor said I'm clearly manic and cannot have AD's right now. They gave me haldol and it knocked me down again several notches. I don't get it. It's like I'm being forced down into the pit and told to be a quiet good girl.
I hope your upswing sticks around a bit longer, but not so much as to keep you in the hospital longer than necessary.
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Are you mixed, like dysphoric mania? Sounds like you are really suffering. What manic symptoms doe you have, if you don't mind me asking, cause the depression sounds terrible. I know when I was mixed in a very dark place in June my doctor wouldn't give me an AD. I was tried on so many meds and nothing worked until I was given Modafinal, a stimulant. I mean WTF? The mixed stopped within hours of taking it. I was then put on Ritalin but fell into a depression. Then my doctor relented and put me on Cymbalta but,well, here I am - manic as ****! So I am off the Cymbalta now.
So hard to deal with BP depression safely. I really hope your mood lifts soon. PM me anytime. xx
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