It's true. The title says it all. It is my fault. If I were stronger I wouldn't have these problems. If I hadn't screwed up then I would be better off. I have brought this on myself.
No matter what I do others will suffer because of me. If I end my life then others will suffer, emotionally, financially, physically, because of what I did. If I continue to live then they will continue to suffer, maybe not to the same extent, because of what I'm going through. If I were stronger this never would have happened in the first place. So I do deserve what I'm getting.