I'm supposed to be following a special diet to keep a digestive disorder I have in check, but keep falling off the wagon and stuffing my face with as much sugar as I can get my hands on

I know I do this to disconnect from some emotion(s) - the deepest grief, or maybe terror.. The thing is, I don't think anyone would be able to handle it if I just let these feelings out. I know my mum couldn't, she got angry when I cried..

But I wonder if maybe there are people out there after all who could handle it.. How would you react if you saw someone wailing their guts out?

Now that I wrote this, I feel I wouldn't even actually do this, I just need to know it's safe to explore these feelings.. Growing up, I learned to swallow them as they seemed to be hurting others..