I feel like a barn door in a hurricane, holding on to its' hinges while the winds strip all the boards and tiles off what's left of the barn. On the positive side, at least I am no longer numb. I have emotions today!!! This is a welcome relief. Mostly anger and fear - boat loads of both - but it's a start. Better than feeling Nothing. I don't like emotions I can't find any normal words to describe, which don't resemble anything I have felt before, except that they are somehow worse than "being depressed". I don't like depression-on-steroids-with-profound-apathy-on-top type stuff.