Not a good day, or is it?

I feel like a barn door in a hurricane, holding on to its' hinges while the winds strip all the boards and tiles off what's left of the barn. On the positive side, at least I am no longer numb. I have emotions today!!! This is a welcome relief. Mostly anger and fear - boat loads of both - but it's a start. Better than feeling Nothing. I don't like emotions I can't find any normal words to describe, which don't resemble anything I have felt before, except that they are somehow worse than "being depressed". I don't like depression-on-steroids-with-profound-apathy-on-top type stuff.

I try to think things through rationally, connect the dots. Situationally frustrated, stressed out, and sad is just not coming together too well, and me procrastinating out of insecurity is pushing things deeper. I need to get a grip and make some changes pronto. No more avoiding.

I have nothing I can add other than to say you are definitely not alone...and now I simply must get on with relining my denture...