I am pulling out of an18-month depression.

I recently got a new job, which is a big deal, because for months and months I was barely functional.

Have you pulled out of a depression, and how did it feel? I might add...I am not on medications as anti-depressants don't work for me.

I seem to have two types of feelings now. The first is a kind of numbness. I am going through the motions but I feel detached...almost half-dead.

The second is overwhelming sadness about not being able to be happy. I miss being happy. Like when I see Christmas lights at night I want to be happy but instead I feel sad. Like I could burst out crying. So I try to ignore everything that makes me feel like that.

It seems like I have up-leveled from severe depression to severe sadness. I don't know if this is normal when coming out of a long depression. Most everything that once made me happy holds little interest for me now...but oddly I miss having interests. For example, I haven't listened to music for two years. Before this I was a music lover and have a vast collection of music. But I don't listen to any music now.