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Originally Posted by DechanDawa
I am pulling out of an18-month depression.
I recently got a new job, which is a big deal, because for months and months I was barely functional.
Have you pulled out of a depression, and how did it feel? I might add...I am not on medications as anti-depressants don't work for me.
I seem to have two types of feelings now. The first is a kind of numbness. I am going through the motions but I feel detached...almost half-dead.
The second is overwhelming sadness about not being able to be happy. I miss being happy. Like when I see Christmas lights at night I want to be happy but instead I feel sad. Like I could burst out crying. So I try to ignore everything that makes me feel like that.
It seems like I have up-leveled from severe depression to severe sadness. I don't know if this is normal when coming out of a long depression. Most everything that once made me happy holds little interest for me now...but oddly I miss having interests. For example, I haven't listened to music for two years. Before this I was a music lover and have a vast collection of music. But I don't listen to any music now.
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here in my location coming out of depression means depression problems are no longer hard example the sadness is no longer so sad, the anxiety is no longer at panic and constant worry stage. everything is starting to be ok again. usually Im also a bit happier, and my problems dont feel so bad. the numbness is usually gone and I am starting to be able to feel again, being able to participate in my life to its fullest again.
my suggestion is talk with your treatment providers they will explain to you what depression and coming out of it is and how things get easier as the depression lifts, if things are not getting lighter and easier maybe they can help you to discover why you are still numb, sad and crying (depression disorder symptoms) even when you feel you are not in depression any more. it might be that there is something else going on or even a medical problem that they can help you with.