In my opinion, for people w depression, and mental health issues, there's a balance between staying busy, having a job, and taking care of yourself. And it's not always possible to work because it's a lot of commitment and responsibility. I feel like I understand what you are going through because of the way my own depression symptoms manifest. In my own life, family and friends try to help. Though sometimes it can be misguided. I think it has been an interesting balance in my own life, listening to others advice, wanting to please those people, and also listening to myself, which is the most important. Really, just take it a day at a time. Think of one thing you are grateful for and do something you enjoy tonight. I hope you get solace from posting here. I have called a helpline before when I needed to. It's a good way to be heard and problem solve, in my opinion. Have a good night.