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Originally Posted by MommaD
Jman and pppp3, it sounds like both of you are in a really bad place right now. I wish I had some magic answer or profound words of wisdom. Sorry. All I've got is the same thing that kept me going for a while. Sheer stubbornness? The faint hope that things could get better (not even that they would get better, just the possibility that they could). Challenge my beliefs. What if I wasn't as bad as I thought? Was there even a .001% possibility that I could be wrong? That the lens of my depression was making me judge myself more harshly than I actually deserved? The things I was kicking myself for--were they really bad or were they...human? Could I cut myself the tiniest bit of slack?
If any of those were possible, then maybe I could hang on just a while longer and see what developed. Life isn't static. Change happens. Change for the better is possible even when I didn't believe it was very likely.
One last question: Why can't you live for yourself? It sounds like that's exactly what you need right now. That isn't selfish--that's saving a life. Yours. You need to look after you. I hope you're reaching out in the real world for help (Doctor/therapist/minister even?)
Sorry. Didn't mean to lecture. Just wanted to offer a little hope.
Sending healing thoughts and virtual hugs your way.
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Not lecturing, just good sound advice, from someone who has enough common sense to cling to a little hope. Thanks-
I started to explain why I've been unsuccessful with both putting the pieces of my life back together and/or getting help from the "real" world -
but then I start sounding like a pathetic victim, which is not who I want to be.
I will say, that the "real" world can be a very unfair, unjust and corrupt place to be.
And if you're lacking somebody (spouse, parent, friend etc.) who really cares about your well-being, it's easy to fall and stay stuck.
But I agree, like you said that even 1% hope is enough reason to keep going, regardless of how we feel.
Because almost instantly things in our lives can change, and although I like many had that happen in a negative way, it can also happen in a positive way-
Now, I think I'll go buy a lottery ticket - No, just kidding...Maybe tomorrow I can/will be that hopeful
Thanks for your great post - Hope and change= Possibly the 2 most important things we must protect and respect in our lives.
And the 3rd is that Depression Lies -
Really it does, and I'm going to try my best to stop listening to it.