I have so many issues. I deny them all the time, but I have and I find it so hard to deal with them. At this moment I have the bad feeling that I will never be free of them.
Why can I never feel safe near everyone? Why I must think all the time what others must be thinking? It's exhausting, it's lonely.
Even when I come here to write to people that don't know who I am I worry about what they may think.
And then I present myself and I worry that the next thing I say will disappoint them and the idea that had made about me.
I am always waiting for the moment when I will disappoint someone.