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Originally Posted by Só leigheas
My fiance and I just had an argument ten hours ago about how I "hide away" all of the time. The only time I'm okay with interaction is with a very select few people (I can count them on one hand) and it has to be in an environment I have some control over when it comes to a couple of those. If people knew what went through in my head any other time, they wouldn't torment me like that, unless they're just sick. With my select few, I feel like I worry and need to protect them, way too much. I hate it. It's like I want no relationship or I get too attached to people, most often the former. I just wish I wasn't like this.
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This is really interesting, because I wonder if this is a common part of cPTSD. I feel much like you do. I think the core of this is trust, or the lack of ability to find an appropriate level of trust for different people in different circumstances. I just find it's easier to not deal with new people because my assumption is that they'll see how 'disgusting' I am (projection, I know).
I have to think about this; there's a ton mixed into what you're talking about. I really think there are some common threads in cPTSD sufferers, but each with their own unique aspects.
Trace - thanks
I ALWAYS make good choices.