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Originally Posted by Só leigheas
My fiance and I just had an argument ten hours ago about how I "hide away" all of the time. The only time I'm okay with interaction is with a very select few people (I can count them on one hand) and it has to be in an environment I have some control over when it comes to a couple of those. If people knew what went through in my head any other time, they wouldn't torment me like that, unless they're just sick. With my select few, I feel like I worry and need to protect them, way too much. I hate it. It's like I want no relationship or I get too attached to people, most often the former. I just wish I wasn't like this.
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This sounds so much like what I would say. The all or nothing game. You are probably a caregiver also. We tend to care for everyone but at a distance, but those we are close to we would walk through fire for and do everything to make them happy. It's a hard game to play but I'm not sure I would be happy any other way. I care about people, not important that they care about me. I'm really not used to accepting care for me. It's hard to protect ourselves and be so open at the same time. Kind of like my signature picture
