I didn't.. maybe it would have been better if I had done... I kinda bought into his interpretation that it was my "fault" he had negative feelings towards me at times, and that his expressing them would be "therapeutic" as it would be "honest"

I also think maybe he was trying to "desensitise" me to harsh (and cruel) words and opinions
But it didn't help

At the end of the therapy he did say I was "doing better"
(That's one of the few things I remember from the last year of therapy)

But now I'm not ..

(My childhood was characterised by deceit as well as abuse)