Abandoning self

I know this is something people with BPD (borderline personality) do according to the literature. I can't read much at the moment (allergic to my hypoallergenic reading glasses) (or maybe to the dust they trap)

I wonder if anybody does this here, abandoning self, or could explain it to me...I think I do it all the time

What do you mean by abounding self describe it please.

Thanks, I was kinda hoping someone would explain it to me..
Maybe it's partly about not having closed the door on any and all abusers at the first sign of abuse
But as a child, of course, that wasn't possible

It would also mean walking out on any medic irl at the first sign of disrespect

I would do this now... but that's assuming there are some medics who are respectful

(I live in the uk)

not sure what you are experiencing ... are you saying giving up an authentic "you" to be some thing your really not ... kind of "losing" your true self ... ?

or are you saying giving up on yourself ... ?

or something totaly different ... ?

It's kind of "losing" or hiding true self irl... nobody gets it or wants to

Even papa bear gets stressed out so I can only tell him a bit of what I experience

Are you dissociating?
Removing your inner self from the actual experience?
Protecting yourself from experiencing real life?
LIke you did as a child.
Avoiding intimacy?
(((((HUGS)))))
bizi

on a google search from the huffington post article.
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Yes I think so..
Maybe that's why I don't remember anything from the last year I was "in therapy" irl..

He talked about "reparation" but had hurt me too much..

He said he felt "impotent" because apparently he did not succeed..or I did not succeed in "significant change"

But he did not tell me his agenda at the beginning of therapy. As I believe he was very sick psychologically, and definitely extremely mean with his words far too often... this is not surprising..

He did talk about "little me" being in a cell before the therapy went so wrong

Let me get this straight. YOur therapist was mean to you?
bizi

Yes, very much so

I am so sorry.
Did /could you report him?
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I didn't.. maybe it would have been better if I had done... I kinda bought into his interpretation that it was my "fault" he had negative feelings towards me at times, and that his expressing them would be "therapeutic" as it would be "honest"

I also think maybe he was trying to "desensitise" me to harsh (and cruel) words and opinions
But it didn't help

At the end of the therapy he did say I was "doing better"
(That's one of the few things I remember from the last year of therapy)

But now I'm not ..

(My childhood was characterised by deceit as well as abuse)

I am sorry you had a rough child hood.
(((((HUGS)))))
bizi

do you have a new therapist?
bizi

I'm looking for one, it's hard to find a good therapist in the UK
(I hear about so many examples of bad ones.. )

This really pisses me off. The n.h.s. . .


They abandon so many

just wanted to give you a hug.
(((((HUG)))))
bizi

((((((HUGS))))))
bizi

I have a new therapist I love her so far.
bizi