So, uh...I really want to hurt myself tonight.

I can't sleep and I um... I just really don't want to keep breathing.

The worst part, guys I don't want to die. I don't want to but I really ****ing do at the same time.

This isn't the first time I've dealt with this but it's still so damn miserable.

I don't want to kill myself but I don't know if I can stop me. You know?

I don't know how else to explain it.