I had an intense session two sessions ago. Then last session I was chipper. I talked about little of significance. We laughed and talked, but we didn't process much at all. A few month ago I was getting irritated at myself for this chipperness. I looked for a pattern. I use it to reestablish my safe relationship with my therapist. It happens either at the beginning of a session before I drop a bomb, so to speak, or in a session after a really intense session. It bugs me this week that I spent the last session doing this chipperness and wasted a whole session, but my mom reminded me that if I didn't psychologically need it, it wouldn't be happening.
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Dx: Bipolar II, ultra rapid cycling but meds help with the severity of cycling.
Rx: lamictal, seroquel, lithium
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