I keep wanting to make a thread but I can't organize all my thoughts well enough to do so...I feel very depressed and have dangerously low self esteem/confidence due to dealing with being bullied, pushed around, and used and realizing that I'm such a loser with talents and skills that are rendered useless because I'm shy and have no social skills/emotional intelligence. This means I'm destined to fail no matter what. And I can never develop friendships...I just don't know what to talk about with most people. I'm too ashamed of my interests and core identity. I'm struggling to come up with a new identity I can pretend to be in public. I can't lie, so I can only hide.

But I'm so lonely and have no future at this point.