Why not apply for SSI/SSDI? It will give you something to do. If you get it; it will give you time to stabilize and regroup. You sound like you are just unable to work because you have gone through stress/trauma that has triggered some mental issues. You can slowly get this behind you. Your life will eventually get better. To apply, you will need to get copies of all your medical records. Using them, you can apply on line using the diagnosis and diagnosis codes that are documented in your records. The only initial cost is gathering the records. Then they will ask you a few further questions and schedule you for an appointment with a regular doctor and psychologist. Other than coming up with transportation to get to those appointments, you may be able to do the rest from home. I also like the idea of finding ways to exercise as well. You need to find a physical outlet for some of your anger. Good luck--you are in a tough situation.