I really don't want to have sex with him . and maybe I won't . I'm just thinking about the drug . but I don't want to make him mad either .
I feel really bad that I shared this . I dont want to be judged on here of all places .
I've never been an inpatient . I once went to get help for my drug problem and ended meeting someone there who convinced me to buy drugs for me and him . we did the drugs at his place and he let me stay at his because I had no money left to get home . he spent hours trying to make me sleep with him and it was horrible . I thought he would leave me in the street if I didn't do what he wanted . if he has spent his money I would of felt like I owed him . but it was me who spent mine . I didn't do anything with him .
I dont think I'm going to do anything today that I don't want to do . I will just give him money then he can't make me do anything .