Hope this is the right place to post this...

I always feel like I'm "faking" my mental illnesses and that I'm just overreacting and that it isn't important and that I'm lying to myself.

I feel like I'm just trying to latch onto potential mental illnesses / mental disorders to "feel special" even though that's completely outside of personality and this is a contributing factor for me to put off getting tested/screened for things.

I'm not sure how much this makes sense, but maybe I could get some pointers on how to deal with this feeling?

This was also a bit of a rant because I needed to get this off my chest even though there were threads with similar themes that I could've searched through

Thanks for reading this