I have been getting extreme fuzzy brain. It is hard for me to grok simple concepts when I am like this and it leads to terrible headaches which makes it worse. My brain weak as it is is the only asset I have left. This is worrying.

It is really hard to explain, it is not related to my epilepsy, I know that much. I feel tight in my head, a little dizzy, panic sets in just a tad and any ability to learn or even follow conversations is challenging. It is also a physical response as it causes my tinnitus to increase in pitch and volume which drives me to want to poke holes in my eardrums, which is my newest compulsion. I have an appointment with an EENTdoc in a few weeks and I hope he can do something about the tinnitus.



Before you get too worried of what is in the trigger warning, I just found out my daughter is pregnant with her third child which is another reason to suffer through an otherwise pointless life. I really want to see what they turn into and despite my obvious bias, I really believe they will be very special. My grandson, for example, could start flying around and I wouldn't bat an eye. He walked at 7 months and hasn't slowed down at the ripe old age of 6.

This inability to use my brain is one reason I haven't posted as much lately and haven't really been responding to questions that I normally might be helpful with. I can't understand it well or form a rational and useful response.

I think thinking it might be klonopin withdrawal related. I heard that it sometimes takes years to get over benzos and I have been on low dosage of one type or another since 2011. I have been on 1mg klonopin for at least 2 years. As a test I took a klonopin about an hour ago and my head feels like it was been released and I feel clear-headed and have reading comprehension and my ability to write mind-numbingly long posts is back, sadly for you, dear reader.

On the other hand, I got this occasionally when I was on meds, so who knows? Anyone have any guesses?

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