No one deserves to suffer. And no one is entirely good or bad. As long as one lives, no life is necessarily unfulfilled. If you did not achieve the same accomplishments as others, then so what? You are not someone else, and your life is yours to live alone. By no means are you a "bad" person. Just remember not to compare yourself to others too excessively. Anyone can find an accomplishment worth being jealous of in regards to any other person. Even you have your own admirable deeds, even if they are not blatantly obvious at first. I would hate to see someone like you suffer needlessly.