I'm a bad person

I feel like I'm a bad person who deserves to suffer for the rest of his life. I never did anything with my life. I never will. I'm not even strong enough to fight, with school problems, therapy, ecc. a lot of people do and I can't. If I died, nobody would care, some may be even happier. Things will never improve - no matter how hard I try.

I feel a similar way today.

No, you aren't

You are such a good person. Look how many people you help here on this website alone. You will do great things....and I would be very sad if you weren't around anymore...you just need to find the right path for you...

You are a good person

Apparently though, I am not...I've been told this by those much "wiser" than myself..... (not anyone on pc - but by step unit etc)

Look how many replies you receive... you're loved here

Thank you all for your replies..

Brazen, I'm sorry you feel the same way. I'm sure you're a great person..

I imagine it may not be much coming from a complete stranger but, I think you are a good person. We are our own harshest critics.

I feel the same way, except I have kids, a husband, and friends that would be devastated if I was not here. Other then that, I am in your boat.

I'm SURE the people in your life would care a great deal.

I really hope you (and I) feel better soon.

love,
lily

Thank you both for your sweet and kind words..

I can see that you are a person of great compassion and I think that is a very special and beautiful thing. Sorry you're feeling like this. You're not a bad person at all and I hope you can see that soon. Hugs

Hi Mickey

And I'm saying you are absolutely so NOT a bad person as well!!!
Mickey, you really have posted such kind, supportive, comforting, empathetic things to plenty of people on here..........and NO a bad person couldn't/wouldn't post the things you've posted
I know with depression, it can be so hard to shake those beliefs about yourself though.........so at those times perhaps remind yourself that you feel like you're a bad person........don't forget the feel bit.........and then remind yourself to look at the evidence otherwise..........such as the feedback on this thread ...........remember feelings don't have to be reality

And the rest of your life..........you've got plenty of time to come back to and make plans for that..........you've got plenty of time for that to develop more the way you want it
For now why not give yourself a bit of a break and focus (more?) on getting support with the depression, hey?
Depression can make it so hard to see anything different, to move towards the things you'd like in life.........it's not at all anything about you not being "good enough"........you are......you really are......it's more that you have such a "heavy load" to carry right now
So let us and let your therapist try to help you with lifting that load just a little, hey?? Because we certainly care
It can be possible for things to improve, just give yourself time and keep reaching out for support hey?? You absolutely deserve it!!



Alison

Thank you so much for the kind words

Mickey-

You are not a bad person. You have such a big caring heart. I would miss you if you weren't here. I don't post often but when I do you are so encouraging and supportive. I appreciate that so much. I am sure many people here on PC appreciate the support and encouragement you have given.(((hugs)))

I am so sorry you feel like this too. I feel very similar. I am so so sorry. Nobody deserves this pain and its so hard to find others who understand

No one deserves to suffer. And no one is entirely good or bad. As long as one lives, no life is necessarily unfulfilled. If you did not achieve the same accomplishments as others, then so what? You are not someone else, and your life is yours to live alone. By no means are you a "bad" person. Just remember not to compare yourself to others too excessively. Anyone can find an accomplishment worth being jealous of in regards to any other person. Even you have your own admirable deeds, even if they are not blatantly obvious at first. I would hate to see someone like you suffer needlessly.

Thanks to everyone who has replied.. you're all so kind. I feel a littel better at the moment. Thank you

This is a good post. Thinking of you ((((( Mickey ))))) - you have a big, kind and caring heart and I always appreciate your support, I'd miss you if you weren't here

Hey Michey, it's normal that you can feel in this way, but give to your therapist a chance in time to help you.
It could be also the fact that medicines need more time to make a right effect.
In any case i suggest you to make a plan to exceed this months because
i think that, when the school will finish, you will put aside a lot of anxieties you have now. I am sure you will have more chances to be more peaceful with yourself.
so be patient and fight during this months, i am sure you can reach a good objective this summer.

I wish I could write something smart, but it's hard because I know I feel similar to what you've described sometimes. I'm sorry, I know it is a very painful experience to feel these things..
I also know that those feelings, while they are valid, are coming from the pain, and it's not the truth about you. Far from that.
And I also know that sometimes the pain appears and wants to be let out and seen and it's okay.

Thank you guys for your kindness and advice