Like I said previously ... I am happy to see you posting about yourself now. Please don't stop. You have been such a support to so many - let others support you too *hugs*

I know what it is to feel invisible - but here, at least, you don't have to be. "Real life" situations can be harder to make yourself heard .. trust me, I went almost 20 years trying to get someone to "notice" I needed help by telling them how I was feeling or becoming totally silent for weeks and hiding away, crying, etc... only to have them laugh at me or tell me i was exaggerating things or just totally ignore me. I went the totally wrong way and did end up in the community psych hospital for a week.

If you have been avoiding the hospital for fear or shame but do feel you need it , I will tell you it is not as bad as it has been made out to be and the good thing about it is you do generally get set up with counseling and any other therapy you may need after you leave set up for you before you leave. But if you don't feel you need hospitalization - don't apologize for that either, just take care of yourself. You do what you need to in order to keep healthy n don't feel bad for doing so.

Listening skills do seem to be in short supply though so try not to dwell on the fact people don't listen well or much. Easier said than done, I know. I still find myself dwelling on that fact..but at least there is this place

PS The only thing "wrong" with you - is you are human and thus cannot be perfect... therefore, nothing is wrong with you - you are a beautiful soul