It's true that I had to change therapists (or rather be terminated) to realize how unhealthy the whole thing was. So I'm sorry to say that I don't know whether it's possible to form a healthy relationship with the same T you're having transference for. I was only talking about my experience. But it must be possible with a skilled and competent therapist (which my ex T definitely wasn't, considering she didn't even *believe* in transference). I hope you will manage to overcome this attachment, I know how attached you are to your T. Hugs.