Hello Akane: Well... I looked at your bio & it said you're extremely shy & have a lot of anxiety. I can certainly relate to the anxiety part. I'm not necessarily shy. But I do pretty-much just keep to myself. (I'm an older person, by the way.)

You wrote you can't exactly get help from anyone or anywhere. I don't know why that is... if it's financial, due to where you live, or because you feel you wouldn't be up to it, or if your husband or other family members would disapprove. All of those sorts of things can be deterrents when it comes to seeking mental health services. But really, individual therapy & perhaps something such as CBT (Cognitive Behavioral Therapy) would be the types of services individuals would ordinarily seek I believe.

I personally am not on psych med's nor do I see a therapist. I've tried both in the past. But neither was of any great benefit to me. So I guess you'd say I'm on a self-help sort-of path myself. And, based on my own personal experience, I'd have to say it can be a tough way to go. I myself am a follower of the writings of the Buddhist nun Pema Chödrön. Ani Pema teaches the ancient Tibetan Buddhist practice called "Lojong" or "mind training". (By the way there are some short excerpts from Pema's book: Start Where You Are- A Guide to Compassionate Living in my bio here on PC.)

However, another very good option I'm familiar with is contained in the book Full Catastrophe Living- Using the Wisdom of Your Body and Mind to Face Stress, Pain, and Illness. This book describes, in detail, the program of the Stress Reduction Clinic at the University of Massachusetts Medical Center. It is written for the person who wants to try to implement that program on their own at home.

So these are a couple of "self-help" sorts of resources I'm familiar with. I'm sure there are others as well. Hopefully some other members, here on PC, will have some additional suggestions to share.