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Humpty Dumpty · Apr 26, 2017, 04:27 PM

*If this post is removed I understand. I will try not to be too specific.*
*Warning* Dark post ahead.

The day I still regret to this day is the day I decided not to kill myself.

Possible trigger:

I'm not the type of person that remembers dates like it has been x number of days since...
I don't remember the day I came so close to killing myself. It was probably around 2 years ago. I had some prescription medication that some of the warnings included *If you miss a dose do not double up on the next dose.* *Do not take more than 600 mg a day* *Side effects can cause you to stop breathing* No I will not name the medication on here. I think the moderators would consider that crossing the line. I had 1,000 mg worth of pills. I stood there with the bottle in my hand thinking Long and Hard if I should. The biggest thing holding me back at that moment was I didn't want to fail. I was confident that if I took double the max daily dose that would be good enough. I was 200 mg short of that. I instead put the pills up and went to sleep. I Scheduled a text to be sent to my wife the next morning while I was asleep asking her to throw away the pills. After she looked up the side effects she woke me up and yelled at me.

I think about that day often. I regret not going through with my plan. If I had it to do over again I would do it. I have never told anyone outside of PC that. If I ever told anyone in my life that I would end up in a hospital again.